I’ve been going through some personal stuff lately. God has really been teaching me about letting go of things. Things I tend to hold onto that I shouldn’t. Things I think I need in my life, but really, I don’t. I have been struggling off and on with bad anxiety and at times, fear. These are two of the things I am learning to let go of. I don’t need fear in my life, I need to let it go. I don’t need anxiety in my life, I need to let it go. I need to continue to trust God for my future, for my family, for the plans He has for me, but not to let the fear or anxiety cripple me, or stop me from doing what God has for me.
This letting go, it’s not easy, and yes, it needs to be done on a daily basis, but when I start to let these things go, when I start to say out loud, ‘I let go of all my fears’, than I start to feel God’s peace upon me.
I believe that God has some awesome things in store for me this year. And I know that the enemy is trying to attack me. The enemy is trying to pull me down, put fear in me. I have a choice though, and my choice is to fight this fear, to fight this anxiety, because I am a child of God! I will not let the enemy pull me down, or discourage me, or stop me from what God has in store for my future.
Over the past weeks, there have been a number of worship songs that have pretty much been on repeat. Actually, most of Lauren Daigle’s album has been on repeat on my phone. I can’t really think of one song that has helped me, but all of them have been so uplifting and encouraging to me. God speaks to me through these songs. Bringing peace, comfort and life. They help me focus on what is true.
Another song that has encouraged me recently is one of Kim Walker-Smith’s new ones, called ‘On my Side’. One part says, “You tell my fear to run…”. I will not let fear control my life, it has to run in Jesus name. I will not let anxiety control my life, it has to run in Jesus name.
All of this though is a process. It’s a daily battle and struggle at times, but I will fight, I will get through this, I will become stronger, because God is on my side.
If you are reading this, and going through something similar, don’t give up. It’s not easy, but it get easier and it gets better! Keep fighting, keep praying, keep praising Him! He is on your side!